is what i'm doing right now, waiting another 21 minutes, maybe 10 depending. i'm coloring my hair. i just got sick of it being two toned, and my roots growing out, so back to brown. where maybe it can look cute again. but i bought 2 bottles of dye, incase i missed a couple spots, or i wanted the darker stuff to match the lighter tone.
or if i wanted the carpet to match the drapes... hahaha

and i'm also cleaning the floor, in the bathroom. i don't think i'll get it all done, but we shall see. also, i thought i had a nice outfit picked out for amanda's graduation, turns out this really cute top i liked is a dress. HA, and it just looks stupid with the pants i picked out with it, so i'll return it and get this snazzy green striped top that caught my eye. :P
and i'm d&ding it up tonight, all right! for those of you who care, i'm a drow wizard, niamh. and i'm totally better than you.
and i'm managing to roleplay a bitch. i like it, you know :P
let's see what else.... oh! if i could figure out how to send pictures via blue tooth, i'd post pictures of trixie... i don't think of posted that yet... holy shit

hey everyone!
i have a beagle baby!


her name is trixie, she's a beagle/basset mix, more like 95/5. she looks full beagle, but i guess she's a bit longer than you're average beagle... i don't care, she 6 months old and full of love! and finally house broken! it took me 4 1/2 months, but i did it.
also, dave and i are doing fantastic. i know my profile say's were married, but we're not... yet. he keeps joking about going up to the court house, which it would be nice to have insurance.
and i'm getting new glasses in a couple of weeks. maybe. sometime.
around my birthday.
erm let's see. . .

i've been in the mood to draw lately, i've started, i can do faces, hair, and wings.
and i'm pretty sure if someone gave me line art i could color it in. i've got photoshop on my mac. oh!
i have a macbook. i am 1337.
suck it.

so if you have line art, scanned up... send it my way. i'll see what i can do:P
and oh. i sold my car.
chaching! and dave's driving around this snazzy 5 speed cobalt, which gets 30 miles to the gallon.
and i've got his hunky taurs, that gets 23 poo
and i'm driving to owosso next week. draining my bank account.
what the hell is up with these gas prices! it's insane.
and you know what's really funny. . .

i was going to make this a blog about how i realized, i've misplaced all my angst.
i'm not a depressed teenager anymore, i'll be 20 in a couple months, and i couldn't be happier!
and also i'm not dead :P

hey! look! it's ellie.
with interwebs!! omgz. so let me update you on some things that have been going on with me.
as a lot of you know, i moved back home. not in houghton anymore. which may or may not be a good thing... i think it all worked out for the best. i got a job. am now a video slinger at real video, renting out movies to you, and pron to your parents.
i also, have found new love in my life. from a most unexpected place. for those who don't know you won't, and those of you who do, all well.
i also moved out of my parents house and am now living out in Marlette. Never thought that I'd be way the hell out here. It's weird.
My little brother got caught smoking. Harharharharhar. This makes me smile, i mean in al seriousness, what a douche. I understand that alot of kids are smoking underage but... with my parent's. Nothing get's by them. Atleast, not my step-mom. My parent's are not afraid to go snooping though your shit. Which may or maynot be a bad thing.
Oh! i got a puppy for Valentine's Day. She's a cutie pie. Her name is Trixie and she's a hooker dog.
She's a beagle mix... possible Basset but I'm thinking mostly Beagle.
Ummm let's see...
School is a bitch. I hate SC4 I have class on Good Friday. Which big fucking deal, I'm not religious or anything, but i'm all for a day off. Especially if it's one that I can spend with David. They've been giving me the run around on Financial Aid. It's too far of a drive, the classes suck ballz (except for my sociology class) my psy teacher is freaking nuts and well.. i dropped the rest of my classes.
So i also switched my major, to social work i want to help people. and i don't want to be a nurse. no thank-you.
so i'm trying to take classes at wayne state, or maybe SVSU... i've been sending emails, but it's apparently really hard to respond to one of those. So this is my update. Suck it bitches.. it was a bit short but.... you know.

right so the other day i took my car into the shop because the muffler nearly fell off. well, on my way to class today my car had some trouble starting up. i didn't turst it to get me home, so i left before i even got to class so i came home and it did this thing that happened last year, told me to Shift in D2. So I did, and well I got home and well... now it doesn't start. So, WTF I'm thinking student loan to get a new car? I suppose. This fucking blows though.
To top it all off, people need to not like me anymore. How do I go about being the world's most hated person?
Kidnap the world's supply of clowns?
Force people to attened Mime Show's hourly?
Burn down the Vatican?
I must find someway... why am I so nice?

Interesting. Wow, honestly never saw that one coming. I mean, I guess it explains why alot of the more powerful people in the book, dislike him. But I mean, come on! They're wizards, if anything they should be open and accepting of homosexuality. If they can't be, than the rest of the world is fucked.
But after doing some research, and looking back onto some of the books, I suppose, maayybbee he could be. I personally, don't see it.
I think if Rowling wanted people to know, she should have made it alot more clearer. Yes, he was an oddball, but... well..
I dunno, I just really can't see it.
Well, here's a poorly written article from Time.com

"After reading briefly from the final book, "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows," she took questions from audience members.

She was asked by one young fan whether Dumbledore finds "true love."

"Dumbledore is gay," the author responded to gasps and applause.

She then explained that Dumbledore was smitten with rival Gellert Grindelwald, whom he defeated long ago in a battle between good and bad wizards. "Falling in love can blind us to an extent," Rowling said of Dumbledore's feelings, adding that Dumbledore was "horribly, terribly let down."

Dumbledore's love, she observed, was his "great tragedy."

"Oh, my god," Rowling concluded with a laugh, "the fan fiction."

Potter readers on fan sites and elsewhere on the Internet have speculated on the sexuality of Dumbledore, noting that he has no close relationship with women and a mysterious, troubled past. And explicit scenes with Dumbledore already have appeared in fan fiction.

Rowling told the audience that while working on the planned sixth Potter film, "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince," she spotted a reference in the script to a girl who once was of interest to Dumbledore. A note was duly passed to director David Yates, revealing the truth about her character.

Rowling, finishing a brief "Open Book Tour" of the United States, her first tour here since 2000, also said that she regarded her Potter books as a "prolonged argument for tolerance" and urged her fans to "question authority."

Not everyone likes her work, Rowling said, likely referring to Christian groups that have alleged the books promote witchcraft. Her news about Dumbledore, she said, will give them one more reason."

i want an easy button.
i want to not care. i want to not be depressed.
i want to wake up in the morning, and not be here.
sometimes i feel as if i've been forgotten.
and now i'm too fucking depressed to actualy finish this

like everyone, floating around in this globe. i have no idea what i want. all i know is what i would like to do, as of right now. fly away. a hunder, million miles away, where i can forget about everyone. turn my back on everyone i knew here, pretend i'm someone else. forget about all of the hurt, and heartache that i've endured this past year. and become a new person.
change my hair, grab a handful of new tattoo's, lose a fuck ton of weight, and be that awesome punk rocker girl that i've kinda always wanted to.
fuck social mores and taboo's.

i want to find a way to live in the books i read.
life is way more fun inside a video game, or a book.

i want to run away from my problems, no matter how miniscule they may be.
i don't want to deal right now.

i think i should mention, that i am a habitual class skipper. i mean, an eight am class, no big really. wake up go to class, go home go to bed. it's different when you need to wake up three hours early just to make it on time. so, suffice to say, when i do show up to my morning class, i sleep through my afternoon one. which means i need to find something constructive to do for three hours.

i didn't get much sleep last night. my mind just would not shut off. so i went to bed at 11, i fell asleep at 4 and woke up around 6:30. i'm a strict diet today of energy drinks and sugar. i'll crash later, that'll be fun. i hate energy drinks, but i found this sobe one that's orange. i like orange. but this reminds me of a badly mixed screwdriver, too much vodka not enough orange juice and someone probably slipped something else in there to fuck with me.

i don't know if i mentioned this but, i gave blood last week. i saved someone's life, atleast it's safe to assume since i'm type O-. that should mean that they use mine first, since well anyone can get me. i get around, i'm a skank. and as i was laying on that table with this needle in my arm, and a burning sensation creeping into my veins, i decided that i don't want to do the graphic design thing anymore. i love computers, and adobe and mac will always have my heart. but as of late i'm just not feeling it. maybe it's the dull teachings, or the things i'm "learning" i already know, and it's pretty much be blowing through the work to pay $500 to surf the internet. and my other class, i can draw... kinda. but i don't see me getting better. i don't have that want to practice. i can draw my wings and disproportioned people, good enough for me.
i want to do something good. i want to help people. i want to keep karma in check. i'm a good person. i'm there emotionally, i just need to detach myself from people. and it's damn near impossible to hate me, although i'm sure some people do. maybe? if they do they're insane.

but i really think that i can do some good in the world! and that's all that matters, right. trying. and amanda, i looked (not that money matters... skank) entry level for social work 34k. yeah. suck it. :)

i was looking into transfer programs and alot of schools offer social work, and the gpas were freaking me out. i didn't know what mine is/was. i thought i was failing most of my classes. (you know the skipping) i've got an A in my design course, a B in my foundation drawing, and an S in mass media. An S... wow. way to go Miller.

but i want to change the world.
i want to make it a better place.
i want to get away. visit new places.
see new people.
i will change the world
one energy drink at a time!

All right jerks. Well, I don't know if any of you are guilty of this in MY store, but should you ever find yourselves in a situation where you are in my store, do any of this and well... I'll bitch about it in a blog.

1. Always say hello when the person behind the counter say's hello. They may not give to shits who you are. But it makes them feel real special when you don't acknowledge their existance.

2. Do not reshelve the movies. That is my job, and you messing up my shelves after they we're just straightened up will get you a one way ticket to hell. Yes. Fucking with shelves will earn you eternal damnation.

3. If a movie is NOT on the shelf, do not come up and ask the clerk if we have a copy hidden behind the counter. No. We don't. And if we did, we're not giving it to you.

4. Do not ask us to look up a movie. If you can't find it on your own. You're retarted. Everything is alphabetical and in it's respected catagory. Take a walk figure it out.

4a. Do NOT under any circumstance take longer than 15 minutes to pick out a movie. If you spend any time other than this in the store we will assume you are trying to shoplift and make you uncomfortable by staring at you, and only you until you leave.

5. Do not bitch about your late fees. It's not our fault you a retarted and cannot return your movie on time.

6. Never. Ever. Ever. Call about video games.

7. Unless you know the clerk do not strike up a converstaion unless the clerk has started it.

8. If the clerk strikes up a conversation, talk to them. It'll pay off in the future.

9. It is never ever EVER ok to ask about Porn.

10. If you rent porn, leave the store immediatly! Do not make eye contact. Do not make conversation. Leave. And if the clerk is female. DO NOT TALK TO HER. You've already lost points by renting porn, no matter how good looking you are. Chances are if you're renting porn you're not that cute to begin with, and you're only go to scare someone if you hit on them, with 4 movies on 8 hour naked chicks on them.

it must be true.
i am awesome. so awesome.
i just felt the need to say that. so you know.
yesterday was a good day.
yes.

i guess at some point and time, i turned into a mini dave. only much more good looking and with awesome boobs.
i've gotten to be fairly cynical. and well, i've become more aggressive and... well the big thing i suppose, i no longer fear death. yes, the girl who would waste 2 wishes from a genie 1 on eternal youth, and the second on enternal life is now just asking god to get it over with.
i'm sick of this, no i don't really want to die right now. but if i were to be walking down the street and death came up to me and said 'hey. time to go.' i'd just nod and be all 'all right. what i'd die of?'
'walking pneumonia.'
'sweet. let's go dude.'

and that's how it would be. no struggling. no crying. no nothing.
i'm sick of this drama bull shit.
i'm sick of being led on.
i'm sick of heartache.
i'm sick of missing him when i really don't want to

and i'm sick and tired of this fucking cough that won't go away.

please know, i'm not depressed. i'm not going to kill myself i just.... i dunno.

1. The smell of Lilacs.
2. Blades of grass woven into rings.
3. Puppy breath.
4. A hearty laugh.
5. The warmth of hugs.
6. Kisses on the forehead.
7. The wings of birds.
8. The soft ridges of feathers.
9. Parents.
10. Beach sand.
11. Skies half stormy, half clear.
12. Sun’s rays breaking through clouds.
13. Sun sets.
14. Summer rains.
15. Secret places.
16. A good sob once in awhile.
17. Images that show up in the hairs on the shower walls.
18. Dancing like a maniac.
19. Realizing things that should have been blatantly obvious before.
20. The will to change.
21. The ability to see a beauty in the ugly things.
22. Leaves lazily rustling in the wind.
23. Foot prints in sand.
24. Dreams in which things are more real than reality.
25. Living a different life nearly every time asleep.
26. Vows.
27. Watermelon.
28. Sound of harmonizing voices.
29. Echoes.
30. Drinking a cold glass of water.
31. Squirrels chasing one another.
32. A field of fire flies at night.
33. The croaking of frogs.
34. When the sun and clouds are golden/vermillion like colors.
35. Splashing in puddles.
36. Birds in flight.
37. Mom using ‘We’ to refer to the person in which she’s narrating the
thoughts of.
38. Hearing dad laugh to the point of nearly choking.
39. Yellow Belly Sap Suckers.
40. Grandpa blaming “carpet crickets” for bodily functions.
41. Afternoon naps with the person you love.
42. Smell of sea air.
43. People close by talking, believing that you’re asleep.
44. Grandma’s naivety.
45. Eyes that smile as much as the smile it self.
46. Goldfish with the puffy cheeks.
47. Sudden movements of birds and fish as a group.
48. Older brothers ready to break the legs of those who’d break your
heart.
49. Kid’s trying to say things they can’t yet pronounce.
50. The illusion of things squiggling on the horizon when it’s hot.
51. Icicles (especially from drain pipes on industrial roofs).
52. Mirror images in still water.
53. Breezes.
54. Orchards in bloom.
55. When people think no one is looking.
56. The smell of freshly cut grass.
57. Fog that settles in between hills/mountains.
58. The color orange.
59. Spider webs speckled with droplets of water.
60. The moon shining directly in on the bed.
61. Reliving the feeling of a good dream when remembering it for the
rest of the day.
62. Gentle play with my hair.
63. Waterfalls that have several ledges.
64. Babbling brooks.
65. A lightning storm over water.
66. Deep sea creatures that glow.
67. How butterflies flutter by.
68. How Lower Michigan looks like a mitten.
69. Upper Michigan looks like a rabbit.
70. Blue Footed Boobies.
71. The songs of whales.
72. The snapping of a fire.
73. Little whirlwinds that spin leaves and things around in alleys or
corners.
74. People unafraid to be themselves and equally unafraid to be humble
sometimes.
75. Manatees.
76. Running straight into a freezing body of water on a sweltering
summer day.
77. Wild raspberries.
78. Birch bark.
79. Snow ball fights.
80. Somersaulting down a hill.
81. Tears of joy.
82. Blushing.
83. Snap dragons.
84. Finding shapes and images in drift wood.
85. Shadow puppets.
86. Lillie pads.
87. When dogs kick in their sleep.
88. Meteor showers.
89. When people happen to walk in sync to music they don’t hear.
90. Sex.
91. Hot springs.
92. Male seahorses.
93. Aurora Borealis.
94. How no two snowflakes are alike.
95. The Mysterious Moving Rocks of California's Death Valley National
Park.
96. The feeling when being carried.
97. Dining out with a bunch of people.
98. Mexican jumping beans.
99. A good back scratch.
100. The human capacity for emotion

wootzors.
did he have is claws all over your body?

i laughed so hard when i saw this on TV
and when i found the icon i had to go and youtube it.
go me.
i rock.
yeah. points for ellie.

the second one made me happy.
time to kill some time on youtube :)